QUESTION 4 WOMEN ONLY?

I am 44. She is 31. Long ago, we had had something between us but it didn't pan out. Now, we are best friends & business partners. But I never stopped loving her. We text 20 times a day and talk to eachother on the phone throughout the day. We see eachother 3-4 times a week and devote time to eachother as if we were a couple. In fact, many people ume we are a couple. We are the first people we talk to in the morning and the last at night. She's even the godmother to my kids (from a previous marriage). Back when we dated, it fell apart because she said she loved me like a brother but couldn't make the leap. Now we pretend that I have learned to control my feelings and that I see her as a platonic best friend. Neither of us have ever dated anyone since, because others are driven away by the closeness of our "platonic" relationship. But there's always the unspoken 800 pound gorilla in the room: I've loved her from the day I met her - she's my dream - I would die for her, and she knows it. It's been too many years. I can't do this anymore, because I'm just consumed by the loneliness of it. What do I do?